So, I just got back from a funeral. Buried a friend. The shitty part is, he was 26, healthy as hell, exercised, lifted weights. But I guess he had high blood pressure issues and from what I heard, he died of a heart attack. I didn't want to view the body, even though they had the casket open and they had him laying so his head and chest was visible from even where I was sitting, which was in the back of the parlor. I think that's probably the hardest thing I've ever had to do. Even sitting here typing this, I'm fighting back tears. I just don't know how someone in such great health can be taken like that.
I've definitely looked at changing a lot of shit in my life. I've never been really "diagnosed" with high blood pressure, but, I've been to the dr and it's been elevated. I'm trying to eat better and exercise a little, but I've been dealing with lower back/sciatica issues for over a month, so walking kicks my ass. On a good note, I've lost about 20 pounds in the past 6 weeks. I'm shooting for 50 by the end of summer.
Seeing the pain his family and friends were in from their loss, I don't want to put anyone thru that. Not anytime soon, anyhow.
Well, I'm sitting home alone, which isn't good, it's making my mind wander and I want to cry, so, I'm going to go for a drive to try to clear my head, maybe go spend time with some friends and take my mind off it, or attempt to.
Thank you guys for letting me vent, it means a lot.
I've definitely looked at changing a lot of shit in my life. I've never been really "diagnosed" with high blood pressure, but, I've been to the dr and it's been elevated. I'm trying to eat better and exercise a little, but I've been dealing with lower back/sciatica issues for over a month, so walking kicks my ass. On a good note, I've lost about 20 pounds in the past 6 weeks. I'm shooting for 50 by the end of summer.
Seeing the pain his family and friends were in from their loss, I don't want to put anyone thru that. Not anytime soon, anyhow.
Well, I'm sitting home alone, which isn't good, it's making my mind wander and I want to cry, so, I'm going to go for a drive to try to clear my head, maybe go spend time with some friends and take my mind off it, or attempt to.
Thank you guys for letting me vent, it means a lot.
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