i have no one to really tell or talk to, but i think my relations w/ someone for about 4-5 years has gone down the drain. we were friends and it happend back towards high school and went on till now, which i am still in college, there was the on/off ish thing but now it seems more like real... it seems she felt much alleved to have told me that she just wanted to be friends..
it's not the same, but hearing those words hurt a lot more hiddenly, i know however that the past few months, years things weren't the same and that i looked at her as a VERY CLOSE friend, someone whom i literally trusted and someone whom i've been in the storm and the sunny days with. i knew that the relation dampened, but i guess hearing her say it first hit me... we literally evolved into a 'married couple', but i knew deep down it wouldn't last.
i d k what to do, im having midterms and it's been lingering, but its been just 2 days since and i don't feel like even talking to her or even caring. there's jsut a lot of emotions right now.... mostly sad ones.. it's not like others where people get into for social factors or to get laid or whatever... this trully was 1st love and it sucks and it hurts.. i went out last night and bout a 40oz.. tonight i bought 2-40z and 1 beer.. oh well.. and i have MIDTERMS and life crisis to deal with too.. i don't have much close girl friends nor buds who can relate so ya... i d k what to do. i guess it was good that it makes her happy to be free and do what she wants and for that i am happy too, bu ti guess the process just needs time for me to move on. i dont think i can ever be in a close relation though anymore .. i feel hopeless and in despair..
any how thanks for listening ...
it's not the same, but hearing those words hurt a lot more hiddenly, i know however that the past few months, years things weren't the same and that i looked at her as a VERY CLOSE friend, someone whom i literally trusted and someone whom i've been in the storm and the sunny days with. i knew that the relation dampened, but i guess hearing her say it first hit me... we literally evolved into a 'married couple', but i knew deep down it wouldn't last.
i d k what to do, im having midterms and it's been lingering, but its been just 2 days since and i don't feel like even talking to her or even caring. there's jsut a lot of emotions right now.... mostly sad ones.. it's not like others where people get into for social factors or to get laid or whatever... this trully was 1st love and it sucks and it hurts.. i went out last night and bout a 40oz.. tonight i bought 2-40z and 1 beer.. oh well.. and i have MIDTERMS and life crisis to deal with too.. i don't have much close girl friends nor buds who can relate so ya... i d k what to do. i guess it was good that it makes her happy to be free and do what she wants and for that i am happy too, bu ti guess the process just needs time for me to move on. i dont think i can ever be in a close relation though anymore .. i feel hopeless and in despair..
any how thanks for listening ...
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