Going through a rough time right now.
Well, at this moment I have this much on the plate:
-Car problems: windshield cracked, driver's side window regulator is fubared, exhaust leak and ball joints & bushings need to be done.
-Family problems: mom is trying hard to kick me out because I suggested that she grow up and realize that I'm not a little boy anymore. She always tries to keep me home, and I'm an outgoing person that becomes depressed with being in the house.
My father is nowhere to be found (Mr. 4 kids with 3 different women) after I told him that I was kicked out (2 weeks ago) but I know he probably doesn't have his own apartment at the moment since he's going through a divorce with his current wife (who has a daughter for him that just turned one)
-Girlfriend problems: it seems like due to my aggravation on other aspects of life get me upset or sad, and then I start acting a little different (quiet, sarcastic, etc.) and she'll ask whats wrong, and then stay quiet. I'm like wtf? I don't want to talk if its going to just be a breathing contest. Then I realize I'm getting upset at her, and she's the most important thing in my life, so I get more mad that this whole fucking situation is bringing me to war with her. Another thing that pisses me off completely is when something is wrong, and its obvious, but when I ask her she says "nothing..."
-School problems: school is coming up, and I can't pay for school. I only worked 2 months at this job thus far, and saved up around 700$ after I paid bills and stuff. Plus my parents on the books salary is too much to make me eligible for Fin. aid, but I guess I can explain my situation to a counselor to see if they can get me in through a loophole or something. I don't want to drop out of college like Kayne West.
Man, I was so happy only a few weeks ago. It was a yr. that I've been with my girlfriend at middle of July. Now all of this is happening. I have reason to believe that she's scared I'm going to leave her and I think that may have something to do with how she's acting.
You guys have no clue how I feel right now. I wish that I could just be driving in the cb7 and get into a serious car accident so that I wouldn't have to deal with this anymore. I seriously mean that.
-Car problems: windshield cracked, driver's side window regulator is fubared, exhaust leak and ball joints & bushings need to be done.
-Family problems: mom is trying hard to kick me out because I suggested that she grow up and realize that I'm not a little boy anymore. She always tries to keep me home, and I'm an outgoing person that becomes depressed with being in the house.
My father is nowhere to be found (Mr. 4 kids with 3 different women) after I told him that I was kicked out (2 weeks ago) but I know he probably doesn't have his own apartment at the moment since he's going through a divorce with his current wife (who has a daughter for him that just turned one)
-Girlfriend problems: it seems like due to my aggravation on other aspects of life get me upset or sad, and then I start acting a little different (quiet, sarcastic, etc.) and she'll ask whats wrong, and then stay quiet. I'm like wtf? I don't want to talk if its going to just be a breathing contest. Then I realize I'm getting upset at her, and she's the most important thing in my life, so I get more mad that this whole fucking situation is bringing me to war with her. Another thing that pisses me off completely is when something is wrong, and its obvious, but when I ask her she says "nothing..."
-School problems: school is coming up, and I can't pay for school. I only worked 2 months at this job thus far, and saved up around 700$ after I paid bills and stuff. Plus my parents on the books salary is too much to make me eligible for Fin. aid, but I guess I can explain my situation to a counselor to see if they can get me in through a loophole or something. I don't want to drop out of college like Kayne West.
Man, I was so happy only a few weeks ago. It was a yr. that I've been with my girlfriend at middle of July. Now all of this is happening. I have reason to believe that she's scared I'm going to leave her and I think that may have something to do with how she's acting.
You guys have no clue how I feel right now. I wish that I could just be driving in the cb7 and get into a serious car accident so that I wouldn't have to deal with this anymore. I seriously mean that.
), but we all have or have had some shit not go our ways, and we've thought 'yo how am I gonna get through this?' Some people turn to God, some people just do what they do, some people go out and rob people...whatever. Just take relief in the fact that eventually things will get better, and that things could be much, much, much worse. You're on your way to having a career, you have a girl and mom that love you, and you have a sick CB...just think, in like 3 years you'll be out on your own hopefully w/your girl. Right now you just have to get over a hump.
I love how when I need strength I can always turn to you guys!
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