My dad has borderline personality disorder. Basically he treats me amazing for a while, saying how proud he is of me and taking interest in my life.
Then he'll come wake me up at 6 in the morning on a Saturday yelling at me for not keeping my room clean enough or some stupid shit like that, and treat me horribly for a while.
I've learned to deal with it, it's all I've ever known, but it hurts to see my Mom. She really can't deal with it, because she knew him before it got bad. She's the nicest person you'll ever meet, I guarantee, but anytime I try to talk to her she breaks down because her husband won't talk to you except to belittle her(he sleeps in our computer room on a mattress), and she doesn't have any friends.
My biggest fear is that I'll turn out like my dad. Every day I catch myself doing something he might do, and it scares the hell out of me. I never wan't to beat my wife or my kids, and I don't want to abuse them verbally either, but I catch myself all the time being really short and sarcastic with my girlfriend(wonderful, beautiful girl), and it really worries me that I'll end up just like him.
Okay, this post turned out really long, sorry. I guess I need to talk about this more than I thought.
Then he'll come wake me up at 6 in the morning on a Saturday yelling at me for not keeping my room clean enough or some stupid shit like that, and treat me horribly for a while.
I've learned to deal with it, it's all I've ever known, but it hurts to see my Mom. She really can't deal with it, because she knew him before it got bad. She's the nicest person you'll ever meet, I guarantee, but anytime I try to talk to her she breaks down because her husband won't talk to you except to belittle her(he sleeps in our computer room on a mattress), and she doesn't have any friends.
My biggest fear is that I'll turn out like my dad. Every day I catch myself doing something he might do, and it scares the hell out of me. I never wan't to beat my wife or my kids, and I don't want to abuse them verbally either, but I catch myself all the time being really short and sarcastic with my girlfriend(wonderful, beautiful girl), and it really worries me that I'll end up just like him.
Okay, this post turned out really long, sorry. I guess I need to talk about this more than I thought.
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