I suddenly have found myself lost from everything and everyone. for the past 3 weeks, not a single person has replied to my texts to hang out, nobody asks me to hang out or answers my phone calls to chill. Its literally like, I lost my friends who became junkies, and the other ones, they all just stopped talking to me, as if I became a ghost. Literally this is getting so bad, I dont have 1 freind. I have no one that will hang out with me or answer my calls and its been like this for 3 weeks out of nowhere. I dont understand what happened. I literally have been forgotten ignored. I'm ok at going out and picking up girls at clubs, but I have not a single person to go with, and i get down and dont want to go out. I just sit and stare at the wall for hours sometimes on a friday and saturday night lately.
Shit happens, but it really sucks when you dont have a single person to go to a movie with after a hard week of work with a bad back. which Its now official im going to cali for back surgery.
Im starting to feel like i don't exist. I tell myself I dont care, because I am a work monster, I am on full throttle, trying to make $$ and get my last bit of community college done so I can get into a university. because I know all my troubles of friends will be gone then.
When I move or go to another town, I make friends like crazy, I always become popular everywhere else. but here, back at home, Im starting to feel like a ghost. Its sad that I dont have a single person that will hang out with me (besides my junky friends who if they happen to have money and get drugs that day they can operate or else they dont answer or hang out but i dont hang out with them anymore) so I'm a lone wolf right now.
But I feel like its getting to me. I'm going to go get ready, and go see that movie Kick-Ass in the theater by myself. I'll try to meet some people but florida people keep to themselves, they are completely different than small town folk, or NYC folk or just northern or western people in general.
So yeah what do you do when you become a ghost to the world? I've had so much stuff stolen, getting back into the car game is proving to be a challenge, but it will bring me friends and experiences (hopefully good ones)
EDIT: By the way a picture of me on a mission trip in Africa got chosen to be the cover picture on my church's website's front page. check it out its one of a few repeating pictures. (im the white kid surrounded by a hoard of little african kids trying to all tackle me)
http://www.fumcwp.org/
Shit happens, but it really sucks when you dont have a single person to go to a movie with after a hard week of work with a bad back. which Its now official im going to cali for back surgery.
Im starting to feel like i don't exist. I tell myself I dont care, because I am a work monster, I am on full throttle, trying to make $$ and get my last bit of community college done so I can get into a university. because I know all my troubles of friends will be gone then.
When I move or go to another town, I make friends like crazy, I always become popular everywhere else. but here, back at home, Im starting to feel like a ghost. Its sad that I dont have a single person that will hang out with me (besides my junky friends who if they happen to have money and get drugs that day they can operate or else they dont answer or hang out but i dont hang out with them anymore) so I'm a lone wolf right now.
But I feel like its getting to me. I'm going to go get ready, and go see that movie Kick-Ass in the theater by myself. I'll try to meet some people but florida people keep to themselves, they are completely different than small town folk, or NYC folk or just northern or western people in general.
So yeah what do you do when you become a ghost to the world? I've had so much stuff stolen, getting back into the car game is proving to be a challenge, but it will bring me friends and experiences (hopefully good ones)
EDIT: By the way a picture of me on a mission trip in Africa got chosen to be the cover picture on my church's website's front page. check it out its one of a few repeating pictures. (im the white kid surrounded by a hoard of little african kids trying to all tackle me)
http://www.fumcwp.org/
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