I've come back to life.
Yes, I came back to life. After My trip to Africa this summer, the plain ride killed my back, and when I got home, I was in pain so much, that I went and got painkillers again, and after being clean for the whole summer, I went on a binge on them and got hooked again, leading to my death. (The death of my normal life) Well, about 2 months or 2 1/2 months ago I made an appointment with a rehabilitation specialist, and today Is the first day of my new life, I'm now in outpatient care, And going to see a therapist for my problems (Im not sure how often) and feelings as I have been on and off hard drugs for 2 years. 
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So I'm back, and I also went to see a chiropracter. It turns out when I flipped the neon I guess I caused some pretty serious damage, Because doc's were taking pics of my upper or lower or mid back, but they didnt realize that the spine is one part not 3 and the chiropracter took an x-ray of my whole back, and showed me it, my spine was not in the place it should have been, not even close. So he has been repositioning and adjusting my spine, and my pain has been going away, It still has its moments, and they still suck, but it is much better than before, I will always live in pain and just have to deal with it. I'm probably going to go to hormone therapy, because my back muscles have been so fucked up for so long, they weren't working properly, and a hormone doctor will administer steroids to get my back muscles working correctly now that my spine will be in the right place, plus it will help me gain the weight I lost from everything that has happened. I dropped from 150 only muscle to 125 now back up to 135 So I'm finally getting back to my old self, And having money again, And being able to Work on my cars.
So, since I am able to work and do the things I used to do, I will have my cb7 running again soon, as well as my other cars.
This is a Great day. Though I will still have slight depression for a year because of my 2 year long on/off hard drug habit that rewired my brain chemistry. But Mary Jane can always help with being down, as it is and always will be my soul medicine.
So Here I am, Damaged physically and mentally from long term hard painkiller abuse, and Recovering everyday more and more.
I believe when I finish My cb7 with the wideband hooked up and all the gauges and thousands of dollars worth of parts I have for it installed; And have it running boosted, I will be fully recovered & better than ever, and it wont have to take a year to recover instead.
There are only a couple things that make me happy in my life, and they are:
1. My EX-GF from Highschool who I will never have again that is beyond beautiful.
2. My Mustang in its prime; supercharged and all.
3. My Cb7 With a Fast motor, Be it the f22b Dohc/H22a/or my Boosted G22a1 with my 1800 $ racing transmission.
4. Smoking MJ then working out while listening to Atreyu (my HS X-GF's fav Band back then)
5. Shooting painkillers into my vien which will make anyone happy but won't be good for them, So that is completely out of the question.
6. Watching LOST
7. Banging really hot innocent girls in the ass
(like my recent x omg those titties 
)
8. My Dodge Ram 2500 Cummins Turbo Diesel (upgrading the hx35 and putting it on my honda)
9. Building Computers and building anything Electronic
10. Painting Cars
11. (because 6 isn't an option) Going to my Chiropracter. :-)
Which Im late for right now so I g2g but I have so much work to do and so much is going to get done its going to be awesome. I don't care if anyone cares Im just glad for me!
... - So I'm back, and I also went to see a chiropracter. It turns out when I flipped the neon I guess I caused some pretty serious damage, Because doc's were taking pics of my upper or lower or mid back, but they didnt realize that the spine is one part not 3 and the chiropracter took an x-ray of my whole back, and showed me it, my spine was not in the place it should have been, not even close. So he has been repositioning and adjusting my spine, and my pain has been going away, It still has its moments, and they still suck, but it is much better than before, I will always live in pain and just have to deal with it. I'm probably going to go to hormone therapy, because my back muscles have been so fucked up for so long, they weren't working properly, and a hormone doctor will administer steroids to get my back muscles working correctly now that my spine will be in the right place, plus it will help me gain the weight I lost from everything that has happened. I dropped from 150 only muscle to 125 now back up to 135 So I'm finally getting back to my old self, And having money again, And being able to Work on my cars.
So, since I am able to work and do the things I used to do, I will have my cb7 running again soon, as well as my other cars.
This is a Great day. Though I will still have slight depression for a year because of my 2 year long on/off hard drug habit that rewired my brain chemistry. But Mary Jane can always help with being down, as it is and always will be my soul medicine.
So Here I am, Damaged physically and mentally from long term hard painkiller abuse, and Recovering everyday more and more.
I believe when I finish My cb7 with the wideband hooked up and all the gauges and thousands of dollars worth of parts I have for it installed; And have it running boosted, I will be fully recovered & better than ever, and it wont have to take a year to recover instead.
There are only a couple things that make me happy in my life, and they are:
1. My EX-GF from Highschool who I will never have again that is beyond beautiful.
2. My Mustang in its prime; supercharged and all.
3. My Cb7 With a Fast motor, Be it the f22b Dohc/H22a/or my Boosted G22a1 with my 1800 $ racing transmission.
4. Smoking MJ then working out while listening to Atreyu (my HS X-GF's fav Band back then)
5. Shooting painkillers into my vien which will make anyone happy but won't be good for them, So that is completely out of the question.
6. Watching LOST
7. Banging really hot innocent girls in the ass
(like my recent x omg those titties ) 8. My Dodge Ram 2500 Cummins Turbo Diesel (upgrading the hx35 and putting it on my honda)
9. Building Computers and building anything Electronic
10. Painting Cars
11. (because 6 isn't an option) Going to my Chiropracter. :-)
Which Im late for right now so I g2g but I have so much work to do and so much is going to get done its going to be awesome. I don't care if anyone cares Im just glad for me!
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