I apologize for the length, and lack of cohesive-ness, but I just needed to vent about life in general!
ARG. I make good money but owe my brother a ton of money for stupid crap (stuff he decided I needed and bought without asking me, and is now making me pay him back for it, as well as itemizing everything I ever ate while living at his house so I can pay him back...). He bugs me constantly about it, about how I need to pay him back. Gee, why doesn't he pay back my parents the 2k he's owed them for SEVEN YEARS. I miss all my family and friends back in Utah, my wife misses all of hers as well. Once my lease is up next June, I'm moving out of this place and going back to Utah.
Wifey and I have decided that we are not spending a penny on anything not necessary for survival. I make good money, but I just don't feel secure. My job is only a contract, and I don't really have any connections around here other than my brother. I feel like I need to have 10k in the bank to be safe. Maybe I'm just paranoid. Anyways, I'm basically getting back down to the basics and saving as much money as I can to move back to Utah and be with my family and live a much more stress free life than I can with my brother belittling me at every step.
It's so rediculous. He will literally point out every little thing I do wrong, or don't do. It's terrible. If I don't park in the closest spot, he asks what the hell I'm doing. If I don't park in his driveway 100% straight, he'll tell me how crooked I parked my car. If I think of doing something, and it's not his way, he'll tell me how his way is better. If I don't hear something he said, he get's on my case and says I never listen or pay attention. I'm so. fucking. sick of it! I can't ever do anything right for him. Hey, look. I just rebuilt your FUCKING MOTOR in your truck, but all he can point out is the small oil spot on the garage floor from the cylinder heads sitting there, or the small grease spot on the bathroom sink from washing my hands. I can mow his lawn for him while he's in Malaysia, but I only did it once, why didn't I mow it more often? I love my brother to death, but I'm sick of this crap. I'm sick of HIS irresponsiblity (he makes 73k a year, and lives paycheck to paycheck, and seems desperate for me to pay him back for all that food).
I've got to get out of here, and away from him, as much as I love him and everything he has done for me. I just can't take the belittling anymore. I know I've got it better than a lot of people, and my life is generally OK, but it's starting to wear down on my self-esteem. I just need to be back closer to the REST of my family.
End rant.
Ugh.
ARG. I make good money but owe my brother a ton of money for stupid crap (stuff he decided I needed and bought without asking me, and is now making me pay him back for it, as well as itemizing everything I ever ate while living at his house so I can pay him back...). He bugs me constantly about it, about how I need to pay him back. Gee, why doesn't he pay back my parents the 2k he's owed them for SEVEN YEARS. I miss all my family and friends back in Utah, my wife misses all of hers as well. Once my lease is up next June, I'm moving out of this place and going back to Utah.
Wifey and I have decided that we are not spending a penny on anything not necessary for survival. I make good money, but I just don't feel secure. My job is only a contract, and I don't really have any connections around here other than my brother. I feel like I need to have 10k in the bank to be safe. Maybe I'm just paranoid. Anyways, I'm basically getting back down to the basics and saving as much money as I can to move back to Utah and be with my family and live a much more stress free life than I can with my brother belittling me at every step.
It's so rediculous. He will literally point out every little thing I do wrong, or don't do. It's terrible. If I don't park in the closest spot, he asks what the hell I'm doing. If I don't park in his driveway 100% straight, he'll tell me how crooked I parked my car. If I think of doing something, and it's not his way, he'll tell me how his way is better. If I don't hear something he said, he get's on my case and says I never listen or pay attention. I'm so. fucking. sick of it! I can't ever do anything right for him. Hey, look. I just rebuilt your FUCKING MOTOR in your truck, but all he can point out is the small oil spot on the garage floor from the cylinder heads sitting there, or the small grease spot on the bathroom sink from washing my hands. I can mow his lawn for him while he's in Malaysia, but I only did it once, why didn't I mow it more often? I love my brother to death, but I'm sick of this crap. I'm sick of HIS irresponsiblity (he makes 73k a year, and lives paycheck to paycheck, and seems desperate for me to pay him back for all that food).
I've got to get out of here, and away from him, as much as I love him and everything he has done for me. I just can't take the belittling anymore. I know I've got it better than a lot of people, and my life is generally OK, but it's starting to wear down on my self-esteem. I just need to be back closer to the REST of my family.
End rant.
Ugh.
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