...and at the moment im am damn near out of people to go to. So i turn to you, my cb7 bretheran. Call it a rant, tell me im whining...whatever. Im just at a loss for words and are confused as to why this is happening.
It could get long, but i'll try to keep it brief.....
As of lately, 98% of my friends have been avoiding me in some form. Be it being too busy to talk (which i understand), too busy for another friend in their life, all of a sudden mad at me or just plain hate me now.
Now, trust me when i say Ive thought long and hard and i havent done anything in the passed 2 years to upset or piss off any of my friends. If i have, they refuse to tell me what i did. Thus, why im cofused by this sudden urge to avoid ME.
Maybe im paranoid, but i get this feeling like alot of my friends are just bullshitting me or fucking with me and acting one way or saying one thing, when in reality, they hate me or just dont like me anymore. To them, im the friend they dont want.
One friend in particular, a girl. Long story short, she tried to kill herself, ended up accidentally shooting herself in the leg. Well, in trying to get updates or stay informed, I texted or tried to call her. Not alot. Id say once a day or everyother day. Well, her friend took it upon herself to swipe her phone and block my text messages and possibly my number. The friend also logged onto her myspace and checked her messages from me and deleted them. I know, cuz my friend told me there were no messages from me when she went and checked herself. At first, id say her friend is psycho and doesnt like me for some reason, but then part of me says "Well, what if it wasnt the friend? What if this girl, for some reason, now hates me and is ridding me from her life?"
If thats her decision, so be it, but why not at least tell me, "i dont like you." "i hate you." etc. I can deal with honesty, its this drama, "im gonna act like a little kid" shit that i hate.
Other friends arent ever online, flake out, or "forget" we had plans, etc. A few of my friends have even found it comical that this is happening to me.
Maybe im asking too much of my peers. Maybe i have too much time on my hands. Maybe i HAVE become that friend that nobody wants. You know the type; weird guy ppl talk to but only in groups. You act nice to him, but theres never major conversation cuz everyone else told you they were weird. I think im becoming that guy.
That or im just slipping into the cracks.
Its like i just suddenly walked into a fucking sand pit and have slowly begun sinking. Not only can i not get out, my so-called "friends" are nowhere in sight to lend a hand.
I dont really know what im asking from you guys, i just need to vent and i need some opinions. Some outside views. Tell me the truth. Honest, brutal... whatever. Im just tired of feeling alone, avoided and dumped on.
It could get long, but i'll try to keep it brief.....
As of lately, 98% of my friends have been avoiding me in some form. Be it being too busy to talk (which i understand), too busy for another friend in their life, all of a sudden mad at me or just plain hate me now.
Now, trust me when i say Ive thought long and hard and i havent done anything in the passed 2 years to upset or piss off any of my friends. If i have, they refuse to tell me what i did. Thus, why im cofused by this sudden urge to avoid ME.
Maybe im paranoid, but i get this feeling like alot of my friends are just bullshitting me or fucking with me and acting one way or saying one thing, when in reality, they hate me or just dont like me anymore. To them, im the friend they dont want.
One friend in particular, a girl. Long story short, she tried to kill herself, ended up accidentally shooting herself in the leg. Well, in trying to get updates or stay informed, I texted or tried to call her. Not alot. Id say once a day or everyother day. Well, her friend took it upon herself to swipe her phone and block my text messages and possibly my number. The friend also logged onto her myspace and checked her messages from me and deleted them. I know, cuz my friend told me there were no messages from me when she went and checked herself. At first, id say her friend is psycho and doesnt like me for some reason, but then part of me says "Well, what if it wasnt the friend? What if this girl, for some reason, now hates me and is ridding me from her life?"
If thats her decision, so be it, but why not at least tell me, "i dont like you." "i hate you." etc. I can deal with honesty, its this drama, "im gonna act like a little kid" shit that i hate.
Other friends arent ever online, flake out, or "forget" we had plans, etc. A few of my friends have even found it comical that this is happening to me.
Maybe im asking too much of my peers. Maybe i have too much time on my hands. Maybe i HAVE become that friend that nobody wants. You know the type; weird guy ppl talk to but only in groups. You act nice to him, but theres never major conversation cuz everyone else told you they were weird. I think im becoming that guy.
That or im just slipping into the cracks.
Its like i just suddenly walked into a fucking sand pit and have slowly begun sinking. Not only can i not get out, my so-called "friends" are nowhere in sight to lend a hand.
I dont really know what im asking from you guys, i just need to vent and i need some opinions. Some outside views. Tell me the truth. Honest, brutal... whatever. Im just tired of feeling alone, avoided and dumped on.
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